Perseverance is the Key... I think

I have fake confidence. I've been walking around masquerading my insecurities and fears pretending to be confident in the hope confidence will grow and hopefully overshadow my doubts. I wish I believed more in myself. I wish I could sit here and say "I can do it!" Really, I sit here and say "I think I can. I think I can. I think I can."

I've always known that picking a diet and following it for six weeks wouldn't work... at least not for me. Mostly because six weeks would only get me a fraction of the way to where I need to be. But, I think if I can make it six weeks... then I make it another six weeks... and then another six weeks after that. Well, what happens if I screw up within those six weeks... what do I do? Normally I would give up. I would decide it's not worth... in reality what I'm deciding is I'm not worth it.

"Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal." - Henry Ford

I'm slowly learning two things... 1. I AM worth it and 2. Perseverance is one of the most important aspects. Making a mistake isn't that big a deal... facing those obstacles and getting over them that is what is important. I need to keep my eye on the goal. When I face an obstacle, I need to remind myself that I can do this... perseverance is the key... keep on keeping on. And whatever other tacky phrases I can come up with.

"When the world says, 'Give up,'
Hope whispers, 'Try it one more time.'"

~Author Unknown

So, in my attempt to persevere, I am setting little goals for myself to help me achieve the big goal. At WW they call this... well, I don't remember... building blocks maybe? I would look it up but all my stuff is at home and I am not.

I didn't even really realize it, but I was doing this. By tracking and journaling everything I eat, and then by meal planning. I've been setting and accomplishing little goals. My next little goal is to eat slower.

I eat fast. It's something I'm starting to realize more and more as I start to eat around other people more. I finish way ahead of everyone else, and usually make myself sick from eating too much. So, I'm going to slow down. Enjoy the food. Sip water. Enjoy the conversation around me. This is something I can do. Something that will help me reach the ultimate goal of weight loss.

All this being said, here is tomorrow's meal plan.

Breakfast-

Muffin-2

Yogurt Smoothie-2

NF Latte-2

Total-6

Pts Left-31

Snack-

Yogurt-1

Almonds-3

Total-4

Pts Left-28

Lunch-

Tortilla-3

Laughing cow light wedge-1

Ham-2

Celery-0

Cucumber-0

Bell Pepper-0

Fiber 1 yogurt-0

Total-6

Pts Left-22

Snack

Apple-2

Babybel light-1

Total-3

Pts Left-19

Dinner-

Chipotle Steak Burrito Bowl-14

Total-14

Pts Left-5

Snack-

Apple-2

Ginger Snaps-3

Total-5

Pts Left-0

At the End of the Day

I'm super tired today. I have to be honest, I'm feeling really defeated. The good news is, I did OK with my eating and sticking to my meal plan with a couple of exceptions. Instead of having a peach, I made mixed fruit. I forgot my almonds and my banana, and I added licorice. Which is OK. Oh... and I was a bit hungry after dinner, so I had a piece of bed with PB. So, I went over my points by two. In the end though, I still have 24 of my 35 extra weekly points left. So technically it fit in.
I made tomorrows meal plan on the train tonight on my way home. I was a bit distracted by the ADORABLE toddler in the seat ahead of me and his smiling and waving and showing off.
Anyway, I'm setting this meal plan into the cyber world knowing that probably no one will read it, but that's OK. I'll know it's here.

Breakfast
Toast-2
Egg-2
Cheese-1
Latte-2

Total-7
Pts Left-30

Snack-
Mixed fruit-2
Yogurt-2

Total-4
Pts Left-26

Lunch
Sandwich-5
Banana-2
Veggies-0
Laughing Cow Cheese Wedge-1

Total-9
Pts Left-18

Snack-
Almonds-3

Total- 3
Pts left-15

Dinner-
Grilled Chicken Breast-3
Stuffing -4
Salad w/dressing-2

Total-9
Pts Left-4

Well, I have super cold toes, so I'm heading to bed. Type at ya later.

An Idea

Dear Friends,
“I like to start my notes to you as if we’re already in the middle of a conversation.
I pretend that we’re the oldest and dearest friends– as opposed to what we actually are — people who don’t know each other’s names and met in a chat room where we both claimed we’d never been before."
Oh wait, that's already been said before.....let's start over


Dear Friends,
Let me explain why I've been twittering my food intake. Well, I'm doing so that I think before eating and also so that I remember to track it and count my points. I'm afraid that it's a bit annoying, but it's really helping me (for the most part) so I'm hoping you all won't mind if I continue to do it.
I also had another idea. I really need to make a habit of planning. I want to start planning at least a week in advanced so that I can be prepared and make good choices. So, I'm going to start posting my meal plans here. I hope you don't mind. You can ignore them if you want, or if you have ideas and thoughts that you think would be helpful I would love all your imput. Realy, I am doing it to keep myself in check and accountable.

Most sincerely and lovingly yours,
Katy